Well, not blues exactly. I’m too getting-shit-done busy for that at the moment. But it’s coming. Back to that in a second.
My site is finished, at least to my satisfaction. I intend to make the installation project its own page, but that won’t happen until it’s current state is galleried and pictured. Otherwise, everyone can say what they damn well please about making the menu absolute and floating, but they didn’t parse out the code for this page and adjust it. The values are over my head; it’s very temperamental and complex, far more than I have time to fool with now.
The installation project (the term still doesn’t resonate with me) is done as far as the pieces. I just spent 150 bucks on magnets which may or may not get used. This makes me angry and a little punchy, but there’s not much I can do otherwise. For now, at least, I have a plan that involves painting the wall, possibly with magnetic paint, or barring that plain housepaint and setting the pieces on top with either magnets (which I hope will work, but I don’t expect it to) or tacks. For that last-minute “I don’t give two shits” aura. Whatever. I present this to the BA jury on saturday, and barring complete rejection will paint and hang shit over the weekend. Then it’s just two critiques and two exams and some minor business and I’m done.
Which also means I’m broke. I literally can’t afford a lot of social events. I couldn’t afford (yeah, and fuck UK) the rental cost of graduation regalia even if I wanted to sit through all that. I need a job. I need the meds. I also need some direction as to whether or not Germany will be possible; it doesn’t look good. There aren’t any residencies open during that time, and I can’t find any grants that would cover the trip and that’s just aside from not knowing if there’s a place to stay or something to do. Either way, the apartment and our stuff will have to be dealt with. It’s overwhelming and exhausting, and you know it’s damned something when Christmas isn’t even on my periphery in a negative way.